:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
exam is over dun feel happy at all?. suddenly felt i have alot of things to do. yeah i smiled today but i wasnt in the inside. i can bring myself to smile. seeing thomas like this hais. i dunno wad to say to do tommorrow. i fear i'll break down. jasen he is indecisive himself. i dunno. disappointed. i feel that i'm a ditched and dumped child not meaning my parents. i mean in friendship. and i not good enough? or i have never done my best to be your friend. i am trying hard to be a better person.
i hate when my mom fucking hell scold me for nothing. how do i fucking find my fucking nokia ear piece which is like so long time ago and we had a fucking renovation. she ask me to get out of the house for a fucking ear piece. she is angry with my brother. not ME! i have my freaking problems already. i cant tell you things mom cos you simply dun understand. you dun think the way i think. how much i treasure you. how much you make me cry. i'm hurt by you by thomas by EVERYTHING! just bring me out from my solitude. i dun want to fall into depression anymore. i just want to be happy. is that too much. . . .
even ping xi have fortunate life. even teresa. even xue ting. everyone? why not me?
