:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
my brother cant even do a simple sum! of course i'll get mad! den i get a scolding for being maD!FREAK! wads wrong thats me! i get fed up easily! so wad! X is 5 cm shorter den Y, Z is 10 cm longer than Y! he tells me that X is 5 cm Z is 10cm. wun you get MAD?
cant my mom be more considerate! i'm doing my stuff! he come over and ask for help! and CRY! i get angry thats of course!F$%@^$%&^&*$%^&%*! i'm really pissed! pissed! he gets stress! i'm even stress! teach him so much! in the end he gets just a 50+ mark. he is making me crazy! wanted to teach him well! but he makes me ANGRY when he gives me stupid answer! it uncontrollable! why CANT MY MOTHER UNDERSTAND! obviously he knows the ans when my mom teaches him again! DUH! @#@^%^^%&$& i'm really pisseD! i'm trying my freaking best to make her smile! laugh! RELAX! and WAD I GET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thats fine if she wants me to buy girls clothes i've already buy to make her happy! cant she just understand i dun like it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm sportive boyish! she scared when ppl makes comments if she brings me to functions looking like tomboy! THIS IS MY NATURE! cant she just UNDERSTAND! i'm really pissed to the end! she is stress! arent I. i'm trying to make everyone happy! and what i get! i keep my unhappiness in ME! ME!! ME!!!!!! i'm already planning my future! so she doesnt have to suffeR!. sometimes i really feel upset by the way she treats me! good and bad and WORSE! @#!#%$#^@& i'm really pissed! PISSED!now i already have problem with sisi! its drifting further. FREAKING FAR AWAY FROM HER! i hate HISTORY TO REPEAT!.I HATE! 
i..............hate it! why! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
