:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
wad a day to start. microsoft frontpage presentation. bloody screwed was on the verge to just cry out loud, spitting all the vulgarities out. i spent the whole freaking night sacrifying my hours of sleep to do this frontpage shit and reports. and my hardwork almost just went down to the DRAIN!! my homepage cork up went missing. zhi hui helped me we are like try so hard to do all the thingS!!! and its gone. homepage its my sweat manz. the flash the design GONE!! i PANICKed like noone's business!!! and i couldnt finish my reports. i didnt do tutorial!!! and i dun understand!! sians. gosh a bad day indeed, i saw everyone that i know except her. is this fated or what. i wun give up. i wun i'll wait. and i will. i feel so i dunno. i begin to feel the urge to give up this course that i love and leave this place. as far as i can go! somewhere people who SHOWS that they love. in my class it became hatred all because of kim hock. ALL because of him. bloody idiot cant he just shut his big mouth and stop his BIG ego eego ego eggggggggo attitude. he is freaking SMART so his attitude sucks. he makes us feeel stupid! freaking stupid k. and i hate it! slap his face or whatever. bloody ugly guy say i'm ugly. i'll never forget that. idiot i dun think i'm uglier than his ex. idiot. damn pissed!! ARGH. show up attitude. act smart attitude. come one you say you feel left out please ok change your attitude. his attitude getting worse and i hate people who smokes and he know i hate it. and he walks beside me. YUCKs!!!.
feeling better after i called audrey. but she's having lesson so yeap nevermind ba! =. in class so many people attached or in love. i had nothing. no love. no attachment. nothing. feel so lonely. wanted to love someone but hmmmmms let things goes slowly. i loved everyone hardly get wad i gave back. is this all i deserved. fuck k. fuck ME! Argh. damn pissed today. my willing-ness becomes my enemy. where's my angel. i thought i found one. now this angel whom i think seems too busy i worried for this angel more than she worry for me, not replying sms, diff time table etc hais. fated. its destinated. and i'll accept it. once again =) back to my turtle shell to hide and heal, now i dare not loook at anyone i fear falling in love again.
