:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
hmmmms getting alittle confused. hey isolating myself from class. from my friends. i feel weird i guess cos i dunno hardly anyone reaches out to help me out from my solitude. they know i have problems but i just cant tell them. i just smile and say i'm fine. i dunno why i just cant confine maybe cos i want them to be happy , no sadness no worries about me. cos our course is stressful enough. hmmms yeap. i've to think about first before myself i mean yeah that should be the right thing to do i feel. its bad keeping inside me. but just wait for holidays ba. when everyone is free from school. it would be better. suddenly i feel that i'm a burden to loads of people alot i feel, cos i'm to difficult to understand?. haha i just degraded from my friend. she told me friend i was her very closed friend. now i'm only her closed friend. stab in my heart but nevermind i think its my fault for everything. but thinking about it. who doesnt think negatively at the point when you're upset or unhappy. i may say positive stuff doesnt mean i am ok in the inside isnt it. hais
nevermind haha thats haha something i should change perhaps. suddenly, i got my facts right about yong jun. i liked him to forget someone. cos in the mindst of liking him, someone has been constantly on my mind. ok i'm stepping on two boat at one time. now i got everything right. seems abit too late. i shouldnt have waited for too long to confess to "you" but i think its fated. mei ting ask me if i would reveal my secret if things were to turn out well, i told her. i dun even care or mind. cos this person means alot to me. i think mei ting understands. but i told her suan le, cos too late things arent like last time. seems alittle difficult to establish back. but i'll not not give up. i have my life for this special someone to think about it. i've set my mind about this. i'm not joking at all. its a matter if you mind me liking you. ALKY hahahaha er serious hmmmmmms i'm not joking. sorry i'm too shy to say all this to you face to face or sms. and i dun even know if you'll look at my blog or anything. but just wanna say that knowing you, is the best part of my life. even if things arent going to turn out wad i expected. its ok =) cos i know someone out there will be yours one day, now er haha you do have ahem someone though. and we shall always be "sisters". =) regardless where are you or who you turn out to be. you may totally forget me one day. but i'm swearing now here k. you'll always be remembered. and i meant wad i said. there's a say "promises are meant to be broken", but rest assure that this say doesnt appear in my dictionary. not now or even ever. and dun worry about saying that cos our timing life schedule are different. wad matter is wad you think inside you meaning your heart yeap. in me i think you should know since when you know i like you ba. er yeah. i'm sorry about wad i did to you last time, cos seriously i wasnt thinking well. and i sincerely apologise. i dun mind anything at all but do you?. and lastly er hmmmmmms zzzz shy la er. hhmmmms i really love you ba ahem... yeap
