:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
yesterday i was alive. today tomorrow future i'm seeem to be not "alive". this problem i cant solve it its simple to you but not me. easy to come up with a solution however hard to carry out. WHY!!!!!!!!!! i'm exhausted. i'm tired. i wanna stop being who i am. i hate being who i am. for every treatment from some just suck. i have a great day today but tomorrow its gone. out of a million day i have ONE great day. is all this meant for me?. i did wad i can. i did everything to the very best that i can. i fight for my happiness but i NEVER get my HAPPINESS. just kill me STAB me. just let me die from all this. i'm so damn hurt. so damn hurt. i'm trying to heal but it got worse. i dunno who to approach to help me. i fear everything. i fear asking for help. i fear telling i need you. i cant love cos i never get it. i cant smile cos you all didnt smile. i tried but have all of you? sometime it just hurt when i'm trying to make you smile but your coldness just slap me hard on my face. a scar that cannot be erased. i'm disappointed cos i failed. i failed. i'm sorry i failed. i'm very confused now. something just dun make sense. i'm too hurt to think how to make that thing sense-ful. no matter how busy i am i try to find them. but why can others. all i get MOSTLY are rejection. if you cant feel how i feel why bother to call me friend. all i left is just a few trustable buddies and friend. thats my life. if i meant to be sucky i always will. if its meant to be, no matter how hard you TRY things are always the SAME. rejections. DUMPED. COLDNESS.
i have enough. . . . e n o u g h.
