:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
i seem to lose my footing from the ground. mei ting broke the news that eileen's mother passed away. one by one kins are leaving earth to heaven. i feel so fearful. i have unfinished business to attent to. my family they need me. my friends they need me. i have not present happiness joy and laughter to everyone. i haven get my degreesssssss. i haven get married. i haven adopted a child. i haven told someone that i really really really loved. that i love you. cos its a tough 3 words that i cant speak. is it true that this 3 words speaks only at that last moment? my goodness.
today joon hong n dawn was concerned about me. giving me advise n words of wisdom about that someone i love. i told them alot of things. and friends stuff. i mean i am here i'm trying to show that i really care but some people just isnt reciprocating. i loved you people all everyone. but i dunno who loves me.
wo hui bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi, zhang kai shuang shuo bian cheng chi pang shou hu ni, ni yao xiang xing, xiang xing wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li, xing fu he kuai le shi jie ju.
i wished to be that angel so that people will believe that i can give them happiness and blessing. only VERY few believe me. sad case. i feel like throwing away my hp, i dunno cos i'm worried so i smsed people. people dun reply making me feeling freaking worried. nevermind. its not paranoid. its just a sense of responsibility to sms back cos the person who sms is worried about you lors. if people dun appreciate i think its the most sad thing ever. just one day when someone stop smsing you den you feel that need of wanting that sms i think its too late. come on people treasure whoever is around you. life is vunerable and short manz. please appreciate everyone who is around you. its important manz. i want to make sure my life on earth is worth. seriously i want my class and everyone back. i miss everyone so badly. i'm tired. i seems to be at a endless marathon. dread to finish it fast but it seems never ending. i decided to go PCT. quite certain? i dunno R&D its a little not for me i feeel. cos i cant memorise. i had to memorize things that i feel that wads the point. but i do love cell bio and micro biology. hais but i terribly hate biochemistry. i really dunno help. i want to ask audrey about her track but she seems so busy. god help me. where are people when i need them. joon hong n dawn say i should be selfish and think for myself sometime. but i have nothing to think for myself. i cant be selfish cos i cant bear to do that. i just cant. someone lead me the way to daylight. i cantsee anything. just plain darkness. i really want to stay strong as ever, i just stood onto my feet and things start happening. am i bound to be crashed to the ground forever. i wanna move forward who can lead me. i yearn for someone who is impossible why am i thinking then, i think its power of love that is stopping me from giving up, but is this person reciprocating. this are questions that are bothering me.
