:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
i tried not to think about it. but its affecting me. i look so pale white? i dunno. have a terrible headache been tolerating since this morning. got worse after i had a nap in the train. i'm so tired. my eyes are like blood shot. i basically drag myself to walk the hill to get home. i need a break. i want and i desperately need a break. dunno wads with jasen acting so weird. dunno wads with thomas having GREAT depression he is why i am so fucking stress. forget it, i can just commit suicide. i read his blog freaking sad. trust, you're talking about trust thomas say it to yourself first manz. you think you trust yourself. worthy i dun think you've the right to say the word worthy. you dun even care ppl beside you showing care n concern. i should migrate and leave this place. get away from LOVE, from THOMAS, from everyone. i am just a by product produced from some major product. thrown away after being produced or used. i tried all means to see wads wrong with thomas and he treat it as something i do for fun. i'm so pissed, upset, angry everything manz. i hate myself because of you thomas YOU! you're my friend we shared everything and now wad i am to you. a by product. you finish using me, and you're getting rid of me. fun huh. you're hurt or wadever. have you ever thought of others who are even more hurt than you.
"you can get back to yourself" its up to you to change back ok. its your choice. life is short n you dun even cherish it properly. i dunno lar. wadever.
i'm too sick to see wads wrong already, let jasen do it then. i cried cos of you thomas, i cried for you. i cried cos you used me. my life is over, i lost a buddy that i love.
