:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
what a day i had today. i went back to dunearn to take a look at the band. its encouraging that they improve than last time. they are going to perform at esplanade. hais gosh i don't know if its goOd or bad. Effort can be seen but they just cant play as one. its like bits and pieces. trying my best to teach ming fen.i'm really happy that she is so eager to learn! Really proud that she stood high up despite all comments about her.looking back, i really miss my days in dunearn. hoho feeling great after two crazy days out with Janice and her cousin, craze over Da-niel! i dun craze hahaha i cant afford haha. we went to join daniel's fan club, thats not like me haha. but i think just for fun yup. had lots of fun. i love it manz. christine haha she is such a monkey lover, i must admit. haha love the way she is now and hope ever. hahaha sisi, i don't know how to describe but i feel so different, i think she does too. hais why does all this god sis stuff always end so fast. i love her smile. i love her laughter. i love the way she acts. i love the way she is. i hate people bully her or something, wads so stupid being so caring to her? a lesbian act? gosh this people are so childish. i need her, she made me be myself. she encourage me. she's always there. she always care about me, i do too. but.. there is someone still i really care more than i care for her. someone i always worry about, someone i love to be with. Janice and jiahui are those i Love love love love to be with. but this person, change my life totally, she shown me wad is "love", and how important it is to cherish ppl around me. i never told anyone about this cos its something too shy to tok about.kinda embarrassed.i just don't understand why these people can't look on the bright side. why cant i care much for my friends? why cant i?is it an offence?why must people spread unnecessary RUMOURS around! must i stop caring? i lost someone kin, i dun wan to lose anyone else. NO! never. i regret lots of stuff i didn't do. i didn't get to say "i love you" to dad, i never did.i really hope i did, months already past since he left. now i realise his absense affects so much.Far too much than i could ever imagine. the world is all full with sophisticated device, technology, and hope. my hope wasnt there... lucky this blog is only seen by my best buds. its sort of private. i love my best buds, i really do.hai
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