:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
the more i love you, the more you seem so far, beyond my reach. must things be like this. why must things be always like this to me. why cant it be like sec sch. when i prayed hard for something it really happens for me. why why why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WHY!!!!! not now. everyone gets to love someone they love why cant i. why me why me why me. i love YOU! do YOU! where is my ans. i just want to know if you love me. not expecting much. i dun want relationship. you dun even care whether i love you or wad. you make me feel this way. i already FELT USELESSS why must you make me feel more this way. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
are wad i did so tiny pea to you. i'm not guys who likes you doing so much more than i do, i put in so much effort trying to set things back to normal, is that a pea to you. maybe i am stupid, i do so much for people i get nothing back, hope mutation takes place in this gene, turn into someone nasty, selfish, fucking arrogant, like it that way, i hope i can do it that way. thanks for people who loved me. sorry i'm became like this once again. sorry. i'm venting my unhappiness thats all. no offence.
Almost There
Delta Goodrem and Brian Mcfadden
Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind i'd left you
And when I hold you your almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
And now I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here . . .
Haha.. my turn !! Anyway, hmmm.. seems like a lot is happening.. Remember.. I'm always here! Take care! If not, I'll really roll you to the clinic! =)
Dawni tried not to think about it. but its affecting me. i look so pale white? i dunno. have a terrible headache been tolerating since this morning. got worse after i had a nap in the train. i'm so tired. my eyes are like blood shot. i basically drag myself to walk the hill to get home. i need a break. i want and i desperately need a break. dunno wads with jasen acting so weird. dunno wads with thomas having GREAT depression he is why i am so fucking stress. forget it, i can just commit suicide. i read his blog freaking sad. trust, you're talking about trust thomas say it to yourself first manz. you think you trust yourself. worthy i dun think you've the right to say the word worthy. you dun even care ppl beside you showing care n concern. i should migrate and leave this place. get away from LOVE, from THOMAS, from everyone. i am just a by product produced from some major product. thrown away after being produced or used. i tried all means to see wads wrong with thomas and he treat it as something i do for fun. i'm so pissed, upset, angry everything manz. i hate myself because of you thomas YOU! you're my friend we shared everything and now wad i am to you. a by product. you finish using me, and you're getting rid of me. fun huh. you're hurt or wadever. have you ever thought of others who are even more hurt than you.
"you can get back to yourself" its up to you to change back ok. its your choice. life is short n you dun even cherish it properly. i dunno lar. wadever.
i'm too sick to see wads wrong already, let jasen do it then. i cried cos of you thomas, i cried for you. i cried cos you used me. my life is over, i lost a buddy that i love.
