:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
i've been smiling laughing the whole day. but i dun feel this way in the inside. inside i felt as though i lost someone i loved the most. besides my family i mean. yeah.
somehow i just felt inferior of something. somehow i feel things are coming apart. somehow i feel remorse. somehow i feel that i suck. z z z z z z z this is totally crap. crap piece of shit. i'm numb everywhere somehow.
my day wasnt that bad today. really grateful that audrey help out alot today. she helped to purchase candles for me, brought matches for me. i disrupted her bathing session. feel so sorry about it. =I
some reflections that i've done today. reflected things i've done in the past and of course the present. how i wish i could love people that i want to love. cant i be unisex? z crazy hais. its kind of stupid of me i find. i love everyone around me. showered them with love concern care, and i get nothing back in the end. end up being hurt. i loved someone that i cant loved. end up have to give it up. and hurt the person in the end. no matter how much i try to heal the bond, it never be the same again. the more i try, the more i get hurt. i'll never tell show that i'm hurt. cos it only worries others. just solve it myself its the best.
audrey been a great sister cum buddy really grateful for everything she done. she's my motivation to survive in polytechnic. she's someone who always be there for you, i guess. i ...... hmmmmmmms nevermind. earth is round yet life is square in shape. hais. never once i'll get to love someone i LOVE
