:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
running a fever again. wth. hais. hope i'll be ok tml.
as i've said dates are meant to be broken. fuck this sucks i hate it. why this always happen TO ME! destinated fated is that all for me in my life. i shall isolate myself. let ppl hate me den. who bothers. life is so miserable going through such things. who cares if i faint in the middle of the road. who cares if i am calling to tell you i am dying. who bothers. thomas is like a cold blooded freak now. he seems happy without us this few days. i'll leave you alone. hope happiness is with you.
where is mine. . . i feel like a burden to people who cares. . . sorry. sorry i cant stand onto my feet firmly. i tried being strong but i arent strong enough to fight all. i'm very tired trying to get thomas happy. i am tired trying to make myself happy. i am tired scolding my brother. i am tired of being a proper girl. i am tired of loving someone who seems so far. i am tireed cos of trying to keep everyone to me. thomas left. carol left samantha left meow zhi left. perhaps i really suck like wad carol says last time. everyone simply hates me.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!! ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm so depressed now. so down. for 3 weeks i lost the reasons to smile to laugh. sorrows in me. sadness in me. DISAPPOINTMENT in me. ANGER in me. i hit the wall until i'll sick of it. i need something harder. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! [breaks down. . .] why me. WHY GOD!!!!!!! you took aways my love one. you took away audrey. you took away everyone i love. why my FRIEND AROUND ME! WHY MAKE HIM DEPRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you took the old him. i'm soo lonely now. are you happy? i just want someone to lean on, and you took him away. ITS OVER NOW!!! THE MUSIC OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR RRRRGGGGGGGHHHHH i just want everyone to be happy. why tk their happiness they have. why tk my happiness away. why . . . . . . . . wo zui ai de ren. dou bu zai hu wo de chun zai bu shi ma. wo you beng yong, wo shang xin wo hai dao ni men. dui bu qi. but i never someone so much. sorry i became a burden to you my friends. just like the story. i should end everything isnt it. . .
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