:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
yesterday was horrible! freaking rui jian is drunk. he came to meet me in a drunkard mood. with my friends around. spitting rubbish out of his mouth. vulgarities smoking and alcohol smell spreads around. i'm a pissed. hais he tried to pull me along for a walk. i refused. over a lame reason and philosophy he drink till like this! freak. i expect him to be able to control himself! and he became like this. so disappointed. i told my friends like wad a gentleman he is and he came like this! wad the hell. i was like totally turn off. like this i rather go pub manz! argh. i like scolded him lorx. my friend asked me to ignore him.
HAIS i reflected alot last night. i dunno i was down yesterday. i drank jack daniels and heinkeen. hais. lots of things happened last night. which i cant really explain! hais. my resolution for this year
1. play professionally [euphonium]
2. be a good section leader [euphonium]
3. pass upcoming audition for phil youth band
4. studies [all As]
5. be happy always!
6. bring happiness to everyone
7. be more organised and more responsible
8. find a boyfriend
thats all for now! alot more! resolutions always changes =) everyone is loved by a special one! when will it be my turn! hais do i have to turn my love to "others" hais
everyone keep asking me to change to be more feminine! hais but i dun like! AR!!!!! skirt? i'm thinking of buying already! but my hair! no way i'll leave it long! no no way! stop pressing n forcing me! AR!!! ENOUGH!!!
