:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
have i told you lately that i loved you? more and more people are attached. sickening. i dunno if i can love him. loving a guy is so tiring. ok lets not say love. i admire him i guess. i can say i love him. cos i cant. HAIYA! sianz girls are more understandable. guys are nothing but tico bastards, nasty bastards, ETC! so tiring. even ryan has stead now. wth. feeeling soooooooo shi bai. sianz haiya be LEs la. idiotic. crazy. kiddings la. sianz. seriously feel that gurls are more understandable. guys nothing to comment on. they can never be caring concern understanding etc compare to gurls. i mean seriously. sianz its sickening. i cant stand it! hais. falling in love with a guy is so hurting and tiring. hais. i mean yeah i will not possibly have any guys to fall in love with now. i'm an ugly piece of shit. thanks manz.
hmmmmms well stay single and love my family friends, sisters, brother and of course my best buddies. hais. screwed now. sooo screwed. i think i'm in love with *************** but come on i cant. i cant. hais. how i wished things was like last time. haven been able to concentrate studying. hais sisi sound fine now. happy for her. hais wo zhen de hen lei, why cant i have something i really want. just this time. hais. once? twice? i prayed hard to get that stuff but .........argh wadever. pissed
been writing my thoughts and typed it into my hp. a function i discovered last few weeks. hais at least i feel a little relieved. studied at west mall with audrey and janice. felt lot better. morning i cried sianz. mom force me to wear stuff i dun like fought with her. felt bad so hais cried. i dun wanna fight but it always just happen. hais! argh. had fun studying slacking and laughing. today i'm really smiling. audrey n janice brought all that to me. joy happiness and laughter. janice going overseas to study i think. most prob? hmmmmms well i mean people will go. but she is my best buddy. only one. yup. audrey she's really great fantastic sister. i love her and also janice of course. hais. life been wonderful with them as well as christine and sisi. something are hard to say. some friends are hard to find. though i didnt mention them here. action speaks more than words. hais i'm starting to hate guys again. hurt again and again wads the point
problematicsensationmadnesssisi ar. i really dunno what happen to you. everyone cares for you. everyone loves you. why think so far that make you feel so tired. hais. it feels hurt to see you like this. you gave me a cold shoulder. the way you talked. is so shocking. you stunt me. you never talk like this to me. if you really feel troubled i hope you find someone to tok to. you should know how much you meant to me. hais.
i seriously hope you are better cos i really care. my vow, i will never break it. if you wanna break it, i'll understand. hope your life and everything will be back to normal. look around you. there's alot of us who loves you. well thats all i can say.
argh bisexual bisexual. shut up go away. idiot.sucker.drink.alcoholic.workaholic.wad is smiling. wad is laughing. i have no idea. yeah everything its my fault. yeah yeah i started everything. shut up and go away. you pissed me off. ARGH! guys sucks. they are nothing but piece of shit. i decided to write diary on my note book. my life diary. sucks manz. argh
