:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
what a day. feeling up and down. tiring and enthu. had microbiology practical today. so cool. playing around with bacteria. today we had to transport bacteria to broth culture, then grow bacteria on argar(jelly), den we need streak plate, etc. also dillution of bacteria.so fun!! ahha after practical i even ask teacher to allow me to do more. i mean so i can practise more. and he can guide me better in other ways. cool! i get a chance to more the molten agar into the plate!! so cool.!! den that kim hock, say i so enthu for wad. haiya i like it WAD! i love science. but i was quite slow in learning the procedure. haha i'm a slow learner. hee. nvm practise makes things better. i feel fat. need to exercise more! yeah! tml playing bball with my beloved classmates. even gurls! hahaha quite surprise. thought i'll be the only girl, as per normal! hahhahha. french lesson today was pretty hard to catch. very tough to pronounce it nicely. i must practise more. i also need to study more too. and play hard too. wa like this i'll be extremely busy. my friends? shit must not neglect them. must have some time for my friends. my buds especially. hais lantern festival is coming, feeling different. no fatherly fire works. no fatherly atmosphere. no fatherly noises. just plain full moon. right in front me, for me to survey closely. remembering the times "we" had together.i feel that i'm losing myself. what happen to me. what the hell. i hate the way i am now. so Different!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so frustrating. whats going on to me? nothing to say, nothing to talk about, nothing to speak about what i am now. lost of words, life seems so draggy.
a goal
accept that you will not always be in love. sometimes, you'll have no romance in sight. you will be alone. these are times to stay awake. to thrive, and to love and nurture your own soul, your unique and distinct life, just as it is. this doesn't mean you're deprived of love. love is not a scarce commodity. expand your definition to include the love of friends, relatives, playmates, the gods, mother nature, pets, art, laughter, rainbows, and hot fudge. you never need to feel deprived of love. it's everywhere. keep your frog detector calibrated so it clicks when someone or something real, loving, and lovable comes along.
if at this moment in your life, you are in love, saddling up to ride off into the sunset, hold your horses. make sure your heart and head are on the same team. stop and examine your new love's old baggage -- history, friendship, parents, children, spending habits, addictions. be realistic. history tends to repeat itself. you will be the newest chapter in a very long story. be sure its a story you want to be in.
i choose my story, have you?
