:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
frustration. irritation. CAUSEd by the sorching heat from the SUN!!!! i am fainting. oh my god. i feeel all my vitamin being sucked up by the sun! i wanna swim but the sun kept me at sun. no sun still the weather is soo freaking humid. oh my god. in the band room i actually sweat. everyone seems cool except me.
someone lied he didnt come at all. broken lies. broken speech. if you cant come just sms. wth. hais been so down le. stop all this nonsense manz. had enough of all this. i wanna quit! THE WEATHER SUCK! i cant think straight. hais i miss madeline. the double bass girl is cute. oh my god. zzzzz who cares. hais feel disappointed i feel remorse i feel sad. i feel miserable. i feel down. i feel tired. exhaustion are just filling my head with more problems. my only solution put up a brave upfront so i'll not cause any trouble anymore. today when i saw mei ting. i see through her eyes i tried my best to make her feel hmmmms. but i think i failed. such a failure in everything. feel like crying. i feel so used by a friend. no shouldnt say friend. no friend such treat anyone like this. maybe i'm good to be used. played with? hais i missed someone already. i suddenly thought of the past, a reckless past where i fell in love with people who are not meant to be. i played with one i'm filled with guilt already. everything seems not ok when the love thingy happens. noone knows wad i want. they only get wad they want. but i got none. fruitless experiences i guess. i guess i am difficult to understand because i am weird. the day when i really smiled very very happily was when i met janice that day and i went out with audrey. hmmmms yeah. oh well, really exhausted now. so many things to do. hope tomorrow will be a better day! =D nights blooggy and you my fellow reader. sorry to have you reading craps like all this =D nights. have great beautiful dreAms. i love you... that someone out there. hais sads manz! hahha
