:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
thoughts, thats what i've been thinking the whole day. i didnt start doing my homework or anything when i reached home. i just wanted to rest. recently my visions of everything are pretty blurred. i think lack of sleep. things loads of things keep on happening past few days. cant get the hang of my new phone. people doesnt seem to receive me smses.
i've been thinking what happens if most of my close friends are going overseas to study. thinking back i regret for not studying extra harder. feeling so useless in my course. everyone seems so smart except me. ecperiments i always want to do extras to improve a little. you hide this little secret i came up with a lame excuse "its free, do extra no harm". rachel cried today, cos of the QnA part of her presentation. liana and her presentation were fantastic. rachel and liana spoke so well. i'm so scared of speaking in front of so many people. i have the tendency to speak really fast. i hate myselF! why cant i be like who i want to be. i just cant hit the god damn target. ! since my bday my mood hasnt been well. my mum's temper start to rise a little. i get upset when she's upset. she wil never know when i'm upset. cos i hide it. i feel some kind of troubled kid. what the hell. lessons end at 12 tml. have to finish all my work tml. at least i feel that my time management on my homework is improving. amazingly i'm doing all my homework. the past i always do half here and there.z hais tml a brand new day, viruses, bacteria, fungi, plantae, animalia. hais 5 kingdoms. 3 domains, 2 for prokaryotics, 1 for eukaryotics. i'm just trying to remember things that i've to remember. O level orals are due soon. my confidence getting low and low. dunno if i can make it. AIDs, what the hell of a freaking bastard disease. btw AIDs is not a virus. its just a disease. what ever. hais ( how many time must i sigh a day?)
today dunno what had gone wrong in my experiment. i could focus well. i feel like fainting actually, but didnt. lucky. but i just didnt feel well. its inorganic chem pratical at that time. the rick is rather mild, just the acid and the gas produced from sodium chloride and sulphuric acid are slightly dangerous. i couldnt walk properly. i think i didnt sleep well last night. i just manage to finish my report. tired. i think i'll knock off now. take care my friend! nights. -huGs-
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