:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
was talking to mom about the past, my childhood. knew loads of funny stuff. she says that my sense of curiousity is SOOOO HIGH i met accident every now and then.
was young then, was at the old Plaze Singapura. was playing with a statue with sharp edges, and i just knock against the sharp edge and my chin split, i kept bleeding and i didnt dare to drop a single tears until my mom saw me bleeding so much and then i started crying. my first 8 stitches haha.
once i was in my dad's old car and i saw this smoking thingy that cars always have. its really hot stuff. i went to grab it with my whole palm, and i burn my whole hand. i didnt dare to say it out until i cant tolerate the pain i cried. haha my parents was wondering wad happen to me. haha
when i always wet my pants i'll play with the pool of urine wth!! haha den i'll slip and fall, head first, mom say the sound is REALLY LOUD!!! haha den i'll cry very loudly.
i just learn out to walk and i wanted to walk down the stairs myself, and i miss a step and row down the entire steps against the wall. how wild can i be manz. and i'll always fall down tripping on myself.
my dad will always carry me and hoax me with stuff and kiss me to sleep. i miss all that. he'll be very happy when i play a piano song for him and songs i compose for him in his handphone. he kept all. . . all of it.
i just dun get it, why can only we be closer when we're in band. is that wad you think of me? sworn sisters treat each other like this?
yesterday i almost lost my god sister. my only one. almost i can say. i kept crying yesterday, why things kept happening on me. hais everyone is scolding me for keeping things to myself. i'm sorry k. i have my reasons, i really do. tommorrow rehearsal, mei ting say she'll be there for me. i was glad at least she's giving me real support. as for nevermind, sms support still can. its still a support.
for everything i did its just a small pea to her? is that so? i wasnt given a answer, not even a clue. tommorrow, i'll try to play tong hua see how things goes. i guess. i cant sleep well yesterday kept tossing and turning. i'm tired but i cant sleep. my head is getting heavier as days goes by. mei ting and janice ask me not to wait anymore, go for check up straight away. but i fear the outcome. i fear , thats why i want you to be with me, but you wun be there isnt it. i dun you even remember you date me out on the 15 and 17. or remember you're going with me for blood test. i treat things i say seriously, how about you? reading through the cards you gave, fondest memories are flashed back, all are the past that are not going to happen again. i miss me. i miss the relaxation. maybe i'll just find a guy and toy with him, crazy i'll hurt him. no way. i'll not hurt anyone anymore. i've been hurt enough can this stop. i believe in god and prayers i made. most i said whole heartedly, i really did. some did come true thats in the very past. and i thank you for making it come true. maybe its me who created all that to happen, but you gave me strength to do so. but this time i felt so helpless. soo helpless. for i love people so much more than i love myself. i love an impossible person more than everything, but do they feel it. most dun, but i'm glad some does. thanks.
well guess all this are life and obstacles that i've to go through
was talking to mom about the past, my childhood. knew loads of funny stuff. she says that my sense of curiousity is SOOOO HIGH i met accident every now and then.
was young then, was at the old Plaze Singapura. was playing with a statue with sharp edges, and i just knock against the sharp edge and my chin split, i kept bleeding and i didnt dare to drop a single tears until my mom saw me bleeding so much and then i started crying. my first 8 stitches haha.
once i was in my dad's old car and i saw this smoking thingy that cars always have. its really hot stuff. i went to grab it with my whole palm, and i burn my whole hand. i didnt dare to say it out until i cant tolerate the pain i cried. haha my parents was wondering wad happen to me. haha
when i always wet my pants i'll play with the pool of urine wth!! haha den i'll slip and fall, head first, mom say the sound is REALLY LOUD!!! haha den i'll cry very loudly.
i just learn out to walk and i wanted to walk down the stairs myself, and i miss a step and row down the entire steps against the wall. how wild can i be manz. and i'll always fall down tripping on myself.
my dad will always carry me and hoax me with stuff and kiss me to sleep. i miss all that. he'll be very happy when i play a piano song for him and songs i compose for him in his handphone. he kept all. . . all of it.
i just dun get it, why can only we be closer when we're in band. is that wad you think of me? sworn sisters treat each other like this?
yesterday i almost lost my god sister. my only one. almost i can say. i kept crying yesterday, why things kept happening on me. hais everyone is scolding me for keeping things to myself. i'm sorry k. i have my reasons, i really do. tommorrow rehearsal, mei ting say she'll be there for me. i was glad at least she's giving me real support. as for nevermind, sms support still can. its still a support.
for everything i did its just a small pea to her? is that so? i wasnt given a answer, not even a clue. tommorrow, i'll try to play tong hua see how things goes. i guess. i cant sleep well yesterday kept tossing and turning. i'm tired but i cant sleep. my head is getting heavier as days goes by. mei ting and janice ask me not to wait anymore, go for check up straight away. but i fear the outcome. i fear , thats why i want you to be with me, but you wun be there isnt it. i dun you even remember you date me out on the 15 and 17. or remember you're going with me for blood test. i treat things i say seriously, how about you? reading through the cards you gave, fondest memories are flashed back, all are the past that are not going to happen again. i miss me. i miss the relaxation. maybe i'll just find a guy and toy with him, crazy i'll hurt him. no way. i'll not hurt anyone anymore. i've been hurt enough can this stop. i believe in god and prayers i made. most i said whole heartedly, i really did. some did come true thats in the very past. and i thank you for making it come true. maybe its me who created all that to happen, but you gave me strength to do so. but this time i felt so helpless. soo helpless. for i love people so much more than i love myself. i love an impossible person more than everything, but do they feel it. most dun, but i'm glad some does. thanks.
well guess all this are life and obstacles that i've to go through
