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.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
reflected on some past. some mistakes i made. some experiences i went through. the things i lost. its all my fault? i was partially involved in everything? but not all. its my character that i have last time. luckily its better now. but hmmmms seems that revenge found its way on me. everything that i love seems hmmmms not on my side. but the wish i made for aud seems true? haha ok thats good. wishes still exists. haha cooool i made wishes for everyone hope it comes true. hmmms been through some thoughts. and i came to conclusion. i'm loving the way i wanna love someone. even if that person doesnt. hmmmms that doesnt mean i can love more? ok wad am i talking about. cos if being hurt is the reason to stop me from loving people and caring and showering people with love. thats some sort not appropriate to me. i mean being hurt is one thing. everyone will go through. i cant stop loving people or stop caring or anything cos i'll feel hurt in the end? hmmmms being hurt i'm used to it. hurting me? ghaha it always happen on me. is there ever once hurt just stop coming to me? no. i just love everyone. i love being me. although i dun like being hurt but its all fated isnt it. if i stop being me to stop being so hurt? i think i am going against my life. that will not be me. haha den i will not find living in this world meaningful at all. haha. i dun mind being hurt actually. i mean yeah i'l be down. i'll complain here and there. but human does that isnt it? the most hurting thing is not being rejected or you break with me. the most hurting moment is when i see you my friends. love ones or anyone crying. being upset. not smiling. come on, its not the end of the world. get on with life. haha life is yours. why ruin it whenyou have soo many people caring for you. haha for my part i cant say who cares for me who not. its up to you peeps or individuals to judge if i am worth. haha for me i'll just say haha i'm not worth. cos i dun find anything in me that worth a single care from you. if i care for you. if i love you. etc i did all that whole-heartedly. i dun expect things back. but maybe a simple thank you. i'm satisfied. dun shower me back with care or anything cos i did those to you. and you're giving me back something that i gave you. those doesnt comes from your heart manz. when i say i love you, cos my heart tells me so. when i care cos i really do. when i say good bye cos i really have to leave. every sms lies a meaning. i may be crazy to just sms "take care. haha" its just a simple sms. do you feel what that sms means? its only two main words "take care" but i mean alot in that sms. haha its up to you to think why i sms that. haha who bothers to think wad that means. wad if i sms "goodbye" haha will you ever reply back? its a simple word but wad does it means to you. i dun say bye or good bye. cos i hate the word? haha cos it some sort symbolise you're leaving me for good. haha and i really dun like that word? lolol. i'm sorry but i dun like. haha!!! oh well. i'm a weirdo.
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