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.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
hais went phil youth audition today. i played really badly for my piece on fantasy variation. and sight reading was terrible, totally shitty. fuck ok. argh fuck. i screwed everything in my fucking shit day! ARGH! i held my tears all the way until i get home and i broke down.
sorry for the vulgarities. sorry. damn upset now. not in a mood to smile. or laugh.
suddenly i felt that i need love desperately. audrey i talk to her but i didnt felt better. i felt worse, cos i hurt her! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! focking life i have focking sound i have focking lame i am. i bored people. i dun make people smile. i dun make people laugh. i'm just a idiotic lamer.
guess mei ting will be upset knowing i went to that auditon. ARGH!
janice smsed me felt a little better. hais i dunno. somehow i saw christine. was alittle better too. was surprised to see her!! out of like nowhere she was there and is like a sunday a day that we wun possibly meet! hais i miss her n janice n audrey. hais wadever i hurt her. AR!
