:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
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had a terrible day today. i screwed my presentation. i screwed my practical. and i screwed my eup playing. never played so badly in my life before! i'm so depressed. hais. like this how am i going to survive!!! argh!!!!! no mood to elborate. today it totally sucks! sucks to the core hais!
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upset ! sianz. got back my IMB, microbiology A, Inorganic, and physical chemistry results. i was really scared. i was basically dragging my feet up every stairs to the forth storey. though my result is like not really bad but its not really good too. it's below my expectation but was better than i expected. i scored A for both microbiology A and IMB. B for Inorganic chem. C for Physical chem. must study harder. get all As. ALL!! after com skills lesson i went over to the teacher's desk to ask to know my com skills results again. den idiot bastard bitch. i get C. was REALLY DISappointed! i controlled my feelings, my emotion i mean. den huay min came forward and console me. my expression changed ma! so she ask why. i mean yeah its like wai leng came to ask why too. den i was really on the verge on crying le. den i broke down. stupid. both of them really shocked. C isnt that bad i know. but hais i dunno how to say. just got to try harder. hais just dun understand why some people has no stage fright! and i have it! i mean i rehearse and rehearse on my speech i did made lots of mistake. but i enjoyed! and the teacher actually said i dun. den wad can i say. i accept all the bad comments this like that to improve. but i just feel really demoralizing. hongsheng did better, was rather upset. but i'm being motivated.
some happy stuff. haha get to know these guy really nice from NYP. mechanoic engineering (SEG) not shuai but really nice to chat with. have been noticing him recently. he ask me out to jog with some other band seniors on sat. and without even thinking i agreed, gosh. haha he make me smile the whole day! gosh his name ar. william. haha shucks. dun tell me i began to....... admire him?? gosh! cant be happening. but he really very nice. ahha even say that he'll ask me out for bball some other time!! =P cant wait! he smiled to me today =P.
