:: oNly yOu ::
.. -!!sometimes i wish things were like before!!- ..
suddenly, i felt something missing in my life. in band i feel empty. in school i felt empty. someone is juust not there. band wasnt as fun without thomas. hais i miss him. his oldself. "oh shit" "damn"#^$%&&*#*" everything was not there. his laughter his smile his chicky slapping me acts. scolding me. screaming at me then burst oout laughing. i miss everything. hais do i have to lose someone like this. i'm praying for a miracle. but it seems like i am praying for a rainbow in the dark. which you know it never will happen. it only happens in drama. movies. but never in real life. haha it a thought that its pondering me. why cant i share his burden. am i really that freaking shitty or wadever to him. i know his circle of friends are like wow!. cool WOOOt. but have he forget our pac. our promises. our vows. everything. all we can talk now is band. if its band that creates all my life my path, i'll quit band find something not from band. i hate it, i hate people leaving my life. for a reason i dun know. i know nuts about what is going on. whenever people ask "where thomas?" all i can say is "i dunno. not my business" i hate to say that. but it hurts cos i lost a great buddy. it seems like buddies down grade to i dunno. hais. a simple care showed i no reply. just plain coldness? that wad hurts. i can feel he is going through a tough time. but he cant do it himself. can he ask someone with him to share his troubles and woes. at least if he does that i think he'll be even happier. at least if he smiles. it brightens my day. hais. wad a thought that kills my day once again
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